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There are many things I want to do for myself in the future.

I can't sleep till I list this all down somewhere. This has been floating in my mind for the past 2 hours and it's frying my brain. It's been frying my worthless brain because I know majority of the interests I'll be listing within the next 5-8 minutes won't happen. Maybe I'm stating it won't happen because I'm scared and lazy. I want someone's opinion on this entry . Am I being lazy or it's just too many things for me to handle ?

1) I want to be a great productive artist that'll become successful and be some-what known in the states /Korea. A non- greedy ,motivated artist that really cherishes the time in the world to create the work. I want to be successful enough to earn a living and not receive any money from my parents, but instead giving them money .Also, to live comfortably and selfless.

2) I want to create and direct a film piece. This is something I've wanted to do since high school but haven't even started writing any sort of script . While growing up and watching movies that I admire till today made me want to do this.

3) I want to act. It's weird . After watching 'Ghost World' and 'Welcome to the Dollhouse' , I conceived this thought of acting .

4) I want to form a serious band and make music.

5) I want to be fluent in korean and live there for at least 2 years , maybe getting an art job there .

6) Buy my mother a grand transparent KAWAI piano and buy my father a beautiful gold trumpet .

7) travel .

This entry helped me organize my thoughts by 30% .
It still makes me unhappy because I don't know what I'm going to be or be doing in the future . The future is too soon. In 3-4 years ,I'll have to be ready , which is terrifying .